im doing things the wrong way again… and im sorry.

currently cant cant think straight… im doing things without thinking and im making bad decisions. REALLY bad decisions. im making things worst and im already hurting the person i really care the most. im being too attached. im loosing my touch. am i giving too much? or asking too much? both? or am i too much?

looking at things, leaving isnt really a bad idea… if giving headache and heartache is the only thing that i am good at, then i think leaving wouldnt be that hurtful. it would be unfair to say this, but even if i leave, i dont think someone going to miss me. it maybe one sided but thats how i feel. kahit di man ako magparamdam ng ilang araw walang naman atang epekto yun. hehehe! yeah! ang sarap ng feeling! ang sarap ng pakiramdam na nasasaktan ka na pero wala ka ng magawa kung hindi tumawa nalang.

ganun din naman, you’ve got nothing to loose. you already have you life back, your work. you have things to get you going all day and get you occupied. you got all the pieces back. makita ka lang na masaya ok na ako dun. kahit di na ako maging parte ng buhay mo… ill be happy to step back and just watch you from afar. kung nasasaktan din naman kita, leaving would be a fair trade.

siguro nahihirapan lang ako… kasi alam kong di kita matiis.

what would you do when you break your promise? when you hurt the sole thing you sworn to take care?

my reason of writing this entry is to say that im really sorry boo.

sorry is the only thing i have right now. nareceive mo naman siguro yung mga text ko. yung mga sorry ko. well if that is not enough then i dont have anything to offer anymore…. kung yun di mo matanggap… di ko na po alam

boo im sorry na po