ewan ko na ano gagawin ko sa buhay ko… uhm carms just texted me and angelica about her not pursuing her studies na and dami ko ngayong “sana”. one of which is sana i took aviation noon pa. yeah its disappointing pero syempre health nga muna talaga. so carms kung mababasa mo lang to… ang laki ng utang mo samen! manlibre ka! hahaha! tsaka GET WELL SOON! ayun lang..

para kay Lord.. may bad new ka pa ba? hinay hinay naman. wag naman isang bagsakan. please!

uhm… hahaha! teka nawala yung dapat isusulat ko.. hehehe! haven’t slept yet. i was editing the video for kim. nakalimutan ko kasi gawin nung sunday, kaya eto puyat.

kanina nagtext si jacob bigla… nagtanong tungkol kay doraemon.. hahaha! ayun kasama ata si benson.. thanks sa hugs pala! tapos tanong ng tanong tungol sa buhay pag-ibig. loko! talking about love, then naalala ko yun tanong sakin ni jeff nung lasing-lasingan na kami… “what is love?” daw. hahaha! since bangenge ako nun, at la akong maisip na magandang isagot… sinabi ko nalang na “its beyond words” hahaha!

nung isang araw inisip ko siya ulit… ano nga ba yung love para sa akin? then naisip ko favorite definition ko ng life.. “life is a choice”. simple but true. same goes with love. its always been a choice. what happens inside the relationship depends on what you do, and what you choose.

currently bum ako.. hahaha! sa bahay lang. pero nung isang araw nagpass na ako ng resume for IBM. hehehe! sana matanggap ako… then supposedly while waiting for IBM sa call since Oct 30 pa naman yung start nun, gusto ko sanang kumuha ng crash course for graphic design, pero mauudlot ata… hehehe! well sa bahay nagpapataba, nagssit-ups, push-ups.. trying to gain some weight at magkakorte naman katawan ko… and im dead serious.. deadline ko nga sa sarili ko by the end of this month hahaha! kahit konting cuts ok na… been working my ass for 3 days pa lang pero nakikita mo na yung form. hehehe! ang hirap nga lang nung sa chest na part. pero excited na ako.. hahaha!

i wont be on the loosing end and i wont give a damn. ang dami ko ng pinalampas. see you when i see you. hehehe!

well yung gusto ko lang naman sanang sabihin… nasa title na… it says it all. no more dramas.

when you think things couldn’t get worse… ang lakas! akala mo walang lang, pero tang-ina! hayop! trap ako sa bahay! ang dumi ng tubig baha… syempre! pag humupa to… walang makakapigil… aalis ako.
kawawa yung mga apektado sa baha…

just heard this new song from boys like girls with taylor swift.. nice song
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I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing

‘Cause maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we’re leaving

And maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it’s true, that I can’t live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking

Oooh I can’t live without you
‘Cause baby two is better than one
There’s so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I’ve figured out with all that’s said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

currently cant cant think straight… im doing things without thinking and im making bad decisions. REALLY bad decisions. im making things worst and im already hurting the person i really care the most. im being too attached. im loosing my touch. am i giving too much? or asking too much? both? or am i too much?

looking at things, leaving isnt really a bad idea… if giving headache and heartache is the only thing that i am good at, then i think leaving wouldnt be that hurtful. it would be unfair to say this, but even if i leave, i dont think someone going to miss me. it maybe one sided but thats how i feel. kahit di man ako magparamdam ng ilang araw walang naman atang epekto yun. hehehe! yeah! ang sarap ng feeling! ang sarap ng pakiramdam na nasasaktan ka na pero wala ka ng magawa kung hindi tumawa nalang.

ganun din naman, you’ve got nothing to loose. you already have you life back, your work. you have things to get you going all day and get you occupied. you got all the pieces back. makita ka lang na masaya ok na ako dun. kahit di na ako maging parte ng buhay mo… ill be happy to step back and just watch you from afar. kung nasasaktan din naman kita, leaving would be a fair trade.

siguro nahihirapan lang ako… kasi alam kong di kita matiis.

what would you do when you break your promise? when you hurt the sole thing you sworn to take care?

my reason of writing this entry is to say that im really sorry boo.

sorry is the only thing i have right now. nareceive mo naman siguro yung mga text ko. yung mga sorry ko. well if that is not enough then i dont have anything to offer anymore…. kung yun di mo matanggap… di ko na po alam

boo im sorry na po

nakausap ko kanina si gedeon… sina bi nya saken yun full name nya… full na full talaga… then i tried it in my name. hehehe! here it is:

deck ressan morales de binatero y ponpon de soria

hehehe! at least i learned something today…

kakapangalikot ko lang kanina sa My Documents na folder then napansin ko yung isang .txt file tapos may title na “conversation with althea”.  ewan ko ba kung ano pinagusapan namin ni althea over the net at napunta kami sa subject na to. though  maikli lang it was funny, eto yung laman nya:

“like its just the thought of you having someone..
to call..
to text..
to go on a date with..
to fuck..
to fuck..
to fuck..”

-venetia althea rivera

.when i thought that id be so oblivious.

.that nothing could strike me so hard
.that nothing could shake me off my ground
.that cupid wont dare to struck me
.that nothing could stop me in hopping from one coeur to another
.that you cant get pass through my guard

well you proved me wrong.
your a force to be reckoned with.
you caught me off balanced.
you convinced cupid to shoot down a fellow archer.
you stopped me from my tracks.
stopping you? i cant do anything… you have this SUPER VIP pass.

resuscitate

im still sick. ewan ko kung anong nangyari dito sa tyan ko. although wala na akong lagnat. medyo ok na yung pakiramdam ko. i was lying all day in the bed and paulit-ulit pinapakinggan yung who i am ng casting crowns. hahaha! feeling ko kasi kukunin na ako ni lord.

its been raining for the several days, naalala ko yung jacket ko… di pa kasi sinasauli ni jorico. dalawa nalang yung jacket meron ako dito sa bahay. kaya nung napunta ako sa mall… parang ang dami kong gustong bilhin…

mah cravings:

• a pair of pants
• a jacket (from arrow)
• a cap
• a pair of shoes

*dagdag pa yung previous cravings ko.. hehehe!

this weekend may gradeschool mini-reunion kami… huhuhu! kainis… kung sakto lang sana yung pera ko, sana lumipad na ako for this weekend’s get-together… pero im saving for something and someone more important… hehehe! at tsaka ok lang kasi wala rin naman si kat kasi nasa US siya… so if ever uuwi man siya at magkakausap for another mini reunion, sasabay nalang kami sa pag-uiw sa cebu. hehehe!

yung pics namin nung gradeschool: (grade 2 and grade 6) 

hehehe! hanapin nyo ako!

you’re the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you’re the one that i can’t wait to see
with you here by my side i’m in ecstasy

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

chorus:
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we’ve been through
in my mind i can’t believe it’s true
but in my heart the reality is you

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

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